The Holidays

When I was younger I loved the Christmas season. I loved the lights, the music the snow, the decorations and I did for a long time. My Mom loved it and so did I. After she died in 2005 a lot of that started to wane. My family kind of fell apart, especially after my father fell ill with dementia. After he died in 2014 it really felt like I had no family anymore and that made it even harder. Family fights and everything else, just makes me not want to go back there. Today I like to put on a good face and I SAY I like Christmas but in reality I just don’t care. The pandemic didn’t help. Decorating is a hassle, and my husband is not someone who is into Christmas like I was so that has an impact too. What I really want is just to be left alone sometimes but that’s not really on option, is it? Anyway. There, it’s out there.